Back in January when I decided to change my way of thinking I started off by doing simple candle spells. I am not Wiccan but I do see the wonderful, positive aspects of it and I am very interested in some of the rituals used in the practice of Wicca. I stuck with simple candle spells, making them even more simple by not doing an entire ritual as rituals can get fairly complicated. Basically what I did was light a white candle and thank the Universe for this day, light a few green candles and thank the Universe for delivering my abundance to me, etc. Sometimes I would recite a particular spell while lighting a green candle, focusing on money coming into my life. I would use different colored candles for different things depending on what I was focusing on, but I rarely did an entire ritual. I found a lot of comfort in seeing a candle burning as I searched for a house or paid my bills, I would find a deeper sense of connection to the Universe as I meditated knowing that I had lit a candle in honor of the desire I was trying to manifest. I may not have been doing the candle magic exactly as was described, but I felt better then I had in a long time so whatever I was doing was working.
Since I've bought my house and moved I haven't done any candle magic and I can tell. I miss seeing my candles burning, I miss the flash of positive energy I get when I notice the light flickering all over the room, I miss the connection to the Universe I feel while giving thanks as I concentrate my thoughts on what I am trying to manifest. A friend of mine let me borrow a book on Advance Rituals and I was reading through some of the steps last night thinking to myself, "I'm not going to put this much effort into this. I just want to light my candle, say a little prayer, and move on with my day." I started thinking that the magic won't work unless I do it exactly as the book says, then this whole conversation started in my head, "Wait, if you don't believe in what Wiccan's believe in, why do their rituals? Besides, if you have faith in the Universe and you know God knows what you want, then you don't have to keep repeating yourself over and over. It's like a kid saying 'Mom, can I have some candy? Mom? Can I have some candy? Can I have some candy Mom? Mom? Please? Mommy??' God doesn't need to be reminded over and over and over again what you want, God is fully aware of all of my wants and needs and will deliver them when the time is right."
This inner dialog continued on as I drove to work, then DING, out of the blue a thought flashed through my mind and shut all the other thoughts up. I was sitting at a red light and had to find a piece of paper to write the thought down before it combined with the rest of the gobbledy-guk in my head. This is exactly what I wrote, "Candles aren't for God, they are for me. They are to remind me that all things are through God, they are to increase my faith in myself and that I deserve what God wants me to have. It's to increase MY vibration to match the vibration of what I desire." Light turns green. At the next light I wrote this, "God is always connected to us. It is we who lose the connection, not God."
Lighting candles, doing rituals, praying, going to church...to me all these things are for us, not for God, whomever your God is. I never used to understand why people had to go to church multiple times a week or carry their bible around with them, or wear a crucifix. I am starting to get it now, at least get it enough to help me not be so judgemental. Whatever way you use to keep your connection to your God, keep doing it. I think I'll make some of my own candles this time, it will increase my magic!
